Thanksgiving.. what a good Holiday :)

Anyway, Wednesday we went out to lunch with Shawn's mom at Mama's and I've never had their food but it was really really good. Also found out Wednesday morning I got an 85 on my exam. Now, I know an 85 is good, but I'm really upset about this.. especially because I left the test telling Shawn "I think I did really good! It wasn't so bad!" yeah.. guess I was wrong. I wanted to keep all my grades over a 90 but I guess that's out the door now.

Thursday was Thanksgivinggg and it was a nice time. I was up waaay too early as always and got ready way too early. So I went over Shawn's and he polished my ring for me and we hung out there until noon when we went to Mem and Pep's. Usual crowd was there and it quickly filled up. Dinner was amazing.. very filling. Played with Kaelob for a while after dinner.. he's getting so big! And he was SO funny with Shawn. I was holding him, or even when ANYONE was holding him, he was staring at Shawn in amazement. haha. He kept smiling at him and shaking his head at him and it was so freaken cute. A couple times, I was holding him and Shawn was next to me and he would keep playing with Shawn then he would tilt his head almost upside down and stare at Shawn. and he kept doing it! it was so funny and so cute. We thought it was Shawn's hat but he took it off and he kept doing it! haha. it was so adorable. And of course, made me want a baby even more with Shawn. he's going to be amazing <3

So yeah, then a big match of arm wrestling broke out? I have no idea why it even started but I am the reigning Champion thank you very much! :D But it definitely wasn't easy. haha. My 12, 13 & 14 year old cousins gave me a run for my money, and the 12 year old boy beat me. My sister and I were a dead lock for a while until I tired her out and won. I, of course, tried Shawn and it was so sad cause he wasn't even trying! haha I even asked to use two hands and he let me and I still couldn't do it. lol. But I beat everyone else. :) My arm is literally jello though and has been for the past two days. I couldn't even open my pill bottle last night, Shawn had to do it for me. lol.

Oh yeah, and my uncle proposed to his girlfriend. so they're engaged now. it's nice, I'm happy for him, especially if he's happy. He deserves to be happy. But I do think it's kind of weird cause they are older, but people get remarried at freaken 70. All I've heard is that it will be a small backyard wedding. I have no idea when or anything though. For some reason I was slightly jealous of the whole thing.. I don't really know why.. cause I know Shawn will propose to me and all that when he's ready to, but I wished it was me and Shawn telling the family we were engaged. oh well.. he keeps telling me soon. lol. That's one thing I definitely do NOT want to do.. pressure him. I KNOW he will do it, he's told me a million times and I KNOW he will do it when he's ready, so I try not to bring it up anymore, but I still think it all the time. lol. Same thing with babies, but we don't have to worry about that anymore.. back on the pill so I can start Accutane. So, no worries about babies for a while too.

went shopping yesterday which went surprisingly well, being black friday and all. I usually NEVER go out on this day.. ever. I went last year with my mom at like 4pm and it was still nutty. Yesterday was just very crowded, which I hate, but we got in and out of Target and got what we needed and went home. lol. it was nice. Had some amazing turkey soup last night for dinner and Shawn had the infamous meat pie. oh how I love Thanksgiving. :D

PS. Only 2 more weeks of school! :D Whole month off, then the semester from Hell begins. Only 4 more semesters, only 4 more semesters :\ May 2011. May 2011.. it's really depressing when I think of it like that.. May 2011. :(

So I definitely cannot sleep. I've had a bad cold and I woke up and can actually breathe, but I can't sleep? I've been having weird dreams lately.. Shawn and my family know about one of them but the one last night I was being chased by like.. a zombie guy?? it creeped me out and now I can't fall back asleep.

ANYWAY! I'm done my Christmas shopping! :D kinda crazy.. it's not even Thanksgiving yet and I'm done. lol. we just need to get Shawn's parents but we know exactly what we're getting them. Oh and Emma & Max and we know what we're getting them too. I was out of work Thursday and Friday cause of this "flu/cold" thingy and Friday afternoon I was feeling pretty good so I went out Christmas shopping for Shawn and while I was out his mom called me and she was in Nashua too so we met up and we both got Shawn done. haha. it was really nice to hang out with just his mom. :) we talked about a lot and idk, I just felt even more in love with Shawn at the end of it. <3 it was great.

Yesterday was my last "technical" day of clinical. We still have one more after Thanksgiving break but it's only for our evaluations and going over stuff we didn't really cover on the floor. We don't have to be there until 7am which is awesome. I can sleep an extra 30 minutes. haha. Me and the other ladies we're talking on how quick this semester has gone by. It's pretty crazy.. I think next semester is going to be hell. it's going to be like this semester but on steroids. everyone said if you can survive 102, you can make it through the rest. which, after 102, is only 2 more semesters! ah! so exciting :D right now though, I just need to get through the next 3 weeks.

And just a weird thing: I woke up this morning and the ring Shawn made me was on my right hand with my claddaugh ring.. I definitely did not put it on that hand cause I never do that, so I think Shawn put his ring on my right ring finger in the middle of the night? Maybe he was sizing my left ring finger ;)

it's been 9 months! <3 that seems to always be the time I update. haha. anyway, I had clinical yesterday morning so I had to do that before I got to see my love :) Speaking of clinical, I only have two more for this semester! :D can't wait to have a few weeks of sleeping in for a whole weekend.

So yeah, yesterday was 9 months :) Shawn and I went christmas shopping with my mom. She got me pretty much done.. a whole new scrapbook which I cannot wait to start! :D and some stuff for Shawn and I's apartment. then we went to dinner with my parents at Valentino's and it was so good there. Lucie works there but she wasn't there last night. Just went back to my house for the night and Shawn and I finally had our romantic night. it was really nice.

And it's almost christmas and I have NO idea what I'm going to get bub. I have a couple of ideas and he's told me a few things he needs, but it's like.. idk. I wanna get him stuff that he doesn't know about.. He already bought me SOMETHING yesterday with his mom yesterday and he won't tell me haha. which, of course, is better but I'm nosey :P I really don't want to know anyway. he said he knows "3 things" he's going to get me. haha. And I only know one of them because I have to go with him to size them.

I kept hinting yesterday while we were at Michaels, pointing out engagement stickers and wedding pages and engagement picture frames haha but he kept saying "you're not going to need that for a looong time" so I guess it's not going to be Christmas. haha. I'm not expecting it this year anyway, he said not until we move out, plus he's been laid off for almost 6-7 weeks.. but a girl can dream right? ;) Speaking of which, I'm not sure why but I've been brainstorming all of these ideas for our wedding and I kept telling him the ideas and he likes them all so far :) well, except for one but I think I can talk him into it :D

as for our parents, we're buying each of them something from both of us. we already know what we want to get our moms, still thinking about the dads though. And we just have to get some stuff for Emma and Max :D I think he's going to be here soon! <3 He's already 5 lbs. and his head is down.. I'm thinking early December. Shawn thinks she'll go late because everyone is predicting early. haha.

I've been kind of depressed lately too.. this whole nursing and working full time thing is literally consuming my life. I know it's suppose to and I knew all this before I signned up, but I've really been wanting to go back to normal for a while now. I want to just stay home at night with bub.. I want to be able to go out on a Friday night with his family without having to be home by 8pm to get to bed.. I want to be able to go christmas shopping with all of them too! I want to get close to his family and I can't because of my stupid retarded schedule. :( I know, I know.. it will be worth it in the end, plus Bub won't let me quit :P but it's really starting to hit me hard and it's making me really down in the dumps. And next semester and the rest from here on out will be 10x harder. :( clinicals Saturday AND Sunday mornings. :'( really no life. I just keep trying to tell myself "it will eventually end.. 18 months.." and I'm really lucky to have Bub and my parents pushing me to get through it.

alright, I guess that's enough of me bitching..

Exam #3: 98%!! I was so nervous about this exam, I hadn't studied as much as I normally do and I thought for sure I screwed up on a couple questions after talking it over with a few people after the exam, but obviously I was right. haha. I was SO shocked when I was a 98%! Very pleased though.

Yesterday was a hard day for me and Shawn.. well.. not really for the both of us, just me. Basically, I was uploading a shitload of pictures from Halloween onto his laptop and while I was doing that, a shitload of old pictures of him and his ex popped up. :\ He didn't see any of this and I kind of just closed out of it once I saw them pop up but once I saw them I felt literally sick to my stomach. I mean, none of them were of them together or anything but there was a lot of her and I'm normally not a jealous person AT ALL, but this bothered me to no end. I was up all Tuesday night because that's all I could see in my head.. I didn't know whether or not to bring it up to Shawn, or just forget about it, or what.. I thought I would just be able to forget about it but all day yesterday, Shawn could tell something was wrong. So finally I told him I found the pictures and asked why he had them and he told me his ex must've put them on there and he had no idea they were on there and we went upstairs and deleted the whole folder together and I felt a little better. Just going to take me some time to get over it. I know it sounds so stupid but idk, it really bothered me.. He reassured me that he's madly in love with me and only me and he wants to marry me and be with me forever <3 we also talked about how he feels like I'm not very close with his family but for some reason its hard for me.. Not that his family makes me feel uncomfortable, I LOVE them! but.. idk.. I'm going to try really hard to make an effort to get closer to them.

Didn't go to class last night. Was home wicked sick with a flare.. tried some Pepto though and it worked wonders! Figures.. been to GI Doctors, PCP's, etc, and pepto works. haha. So anyway, at work now.. gotta go.

So Shawn and I carved our pumpkins Thursday night. Now I know why my parents always carved simple pumpkins. haha. We both carved pretty intense designs and it took us almost 3 hours but they looked amazing.. and it was a blast. We laughed the whole night, it was awesome. Even though I was getting frustrated, he kept a smile on my face all night and kept encouraging me. :)

As for Halloween, it was great. Unfortuneately, the wind was like, hurricane strength Saturday morning and knocked over almost everything and not just knocked over, but DESTROYED it. My parents, Shawn and I had to secure everything down and I could tell my dad really appreciated having Shawn there. He broke out his kit and went to town and it was SO much fun. idk what it was, but it was a blast! we worked together as a team and banged out 4-5 different buildings and I was helping screw everything in and he kept saying I was doing a good job and idk, it was just awesome. That was more fun than the actual haunting. haha.

We didn't have many trick-or-treaters this year.. I mean, we still had a TON but not as many as in the past. Everyone was all decked out, like always. I just dressed up as a "Good Witch" and Shawn was my Werewolf :) he scared a ton of people haha. we were up until 3am talking to my mom too. >_< thank god he stayed over. Made a HUGE amazing breakfast the next morning and just relaxed all day Sunday. <3

I only have 6 more weeks of school and I can't wait for the little break. Shawn and I desprately need it. Almost time for Max to get here too! :D So excited for him! Alright, almost lunch time and Shawn will be here <3

exciting news!

So, Shawn and I have been talking about marriage and kids, etc. for a while now. Well this weekend he told his mom and sister and niece he wants to marry me and they were all so excited! His sister even suggested he propose by christmas or new years. haha. (which btw I'm not expecting because he told me he isn't going to do it until we at least live together) Anyway, we have been looking at rings and all that, I've wrote about all this already.. So Monday he kept texting me and asking me about the ring we picked out originally and if I would be upset if he got me a different ring and I told him, "I DON'T CARE ABOUT THE RING! It's the meaning behind it!" and I'm not a materialistic asshole who needs a huge shiny fucking rock.

SO Monday night, he gets to my house after I get out of class and I knew something was up.. he was acting funny and i don't know, I could just tell he was different. we're standing in the kitchen while I cooked dinner and he starts asking me if he showed me something would I be upset? And I asked what he wanted to show me and all he would say is "just don't get mad" so I told him just to show me because I knew what it was.. So he starts with this story:

"So my mom called me this morning and said 'you know how you said you want to marry Amanda? well, I was thinking, what if you gave her my old diamond?!' and I thought that was so special and meaningful that my mom would want to give us her diamond" and he pulled out a box with her ring in it and he had me open it and there is a beautiful pear shaped (tear dropped) diamond set in a gold band. At this point, I'm so shocked his mother would offer ME her diamond.. Shawn's brother's gf has been in the family for 6 years and she also has a daughter so I was worried at first about what the family would say and if anyone would be upset and I just had a million things running through my head at once so I didn't react the way Shawn was expecting and I felt really bad, but I really do LOVE the diamond, it's GORGEOUS.

Yesterday Shawn and his sister went to the jewelers to price out what it would cost to set on a different ring and that's all I'm allowed to know about it. haha. I kept trying to ask questions yesterday and Shawn said "it's none of your business! :P" I trust his taste though a lot so I know I'll be happy. whenever it happens. :) again, we have to move out together first.

So that was my exciting beginning of the week! I guess my future mother-in-law really does like me! :D

so Shawn is healing up very nicely. :) his mouth is still pretty sore on the side he had to get stitches, but he never swelled up and never bruised. My sexy wolverine man ;)

yesterday was amazing. I'm not quite sure what was so amazing about it, but it just was. Shawn and I went pumpkin picking at Parlee Farm's in Tyngsboro and it was carry as many pumpkins as you can through these like, 3 cones and you got it for $20! so Shawn carried three HUGE pumpkins :) then we went and saw the goats and bunnies and ran around on the hay stacks. haha. idk, I just felt like a little kid again and in an odd way it was incredibly romantic.. despite the nasty farm smell, it was so sweet & cute. <3 we bought some food to bring to Mem & Pep and headed home.

we went to Mem and Pep's after and it was so cute how much my family LOVES Shawn and how much he LOVES them. he fits right in and jokes around and it's just awesome to see that. it just solidifies I've found the one <3

we're carving our pumpkins Thursday since I have SIM lab and will be home by 6:30pm and we'll make it a family affair.. I LOVE pumpkin carving and eating the seeds after :D hopefully Shawn can stay over Friday or Saturday night too. we're getting closer to the first of the year and I can't wait to move in with him <333333

time for another update..

So last Friday was Dianne (Shawn's moms) birthday. Shawn and I and his family went to her house for Chinese food and cake. It was a lot of fun and I absolutely love his family. I saw a couple of pictures of Shawn from like, 4 years ago and he looked like such a baby! hahaha. I mean, he was (16-17), but it was so cute. :) Shawn and I played with Emma the whole night haha. we're soo ready for a baby but that's definitely waiting until closer to 2011 when I graduate. we'll be stealing Max once he's here too ;) Speaking of Emma, Shawn had to watch her Tuesday all day and they came to visit me at work and we grew on the sidewalks with chalk :) it was so much fun. I'm so in love with that boy, especially when he gets around Emma :D

Anyway, Shawn had his surgery (wisdom teeth) yesterday morning. I stayed at his house Tuesday night after lab and it was amazing to sleep with him the whole night, and he was cute and romantic, he lit a bunch of candles around his room <3 it was amazing. He didn't sleep very good cause he was so nervous about the surgery. We were there early Wednesday morning and they took him right in. It was actually really fast.. I went outside to smoke a cigarette and call my mom and when I went back up, maybe 10 minutes later he was ready. He was SO funny and SO cute. They took me back to see him and he was laying back on a chair and he saw me and he gave me this big huge smile. haha. Everything went really well and he only needed one stitch on his bottom left side. He pretty much acted like he was drunk. haha. we went back to his house and just slept all day til I had to go to school. Before I left for school he was in quite a bit of pain but I gave him a vicodin and he slept. He's healing really really good. Mr. Wolverine I call him cause he always heals so fast and so well. haha.

Some more good news, I got a 100% on my Med Math Quiz which means I can now officially pass meds! :D I'm SO excited. Clinical is Saturday then I have a nice week of just relaxing. :D Thursday the 29th I have SIM lab again so I leave work at 1pm, Friday I have off cause it was originally going to be Shawn's surgery date but it changed but I still have the day off :) then no clinical on Saturday (Halloween). Everything is already up in the yard and I'm getting more and more excited. :D For those of you who don't know Halloween is a HUGE thing in my family and we haunt our yard every year for the past 5 years. Only 9 more days until Halloween :D

Alright gotta get back to work. see yaaaa

happy happy happy Amanda! :D

Just got the results back from my second exam and I got a 92%!! :D Beyond happy and excited. The test was really difficult and even though I was a little uneasy on a couple questions.. I only got 4 wrong!:D

Yesterday was also Shawn and I's 8 months! :D word has gotten out to my family that him and I were looking at engagement rings and everyone is ESTATIC. haha. My aunt, memere, mom.. all of them are like YAY! haha. Shawn found me this AMAZING, GORGEOUS ring.. I know I said I didn't want to know but it's just PERFECT and ME and I LOVE it. So I'm hoping..... ;) but we were talking the other night and like I said before, we need to move out first.

Speaking of which, I'm an asshole. :( Shawn texted me this morning at 10:30am and says "I just got kicked off the job site!" I'm like omg, what the hell happened?! Well.. his hard hat has a million stickers all over it, most of which are "fuck this" and "fuck that" so his boss told him he needs a new hard hat or needs to cover all those stickers.. so he covered them. well..... last week, I took all the tape off that he covered it with. Don't ask me why, but I did. So the general comes on the job and throws him off because this is the second time they told him. :( yeah.. my fault completely. I apologized a million times but saying sorry doesn't help pay the bills. :\ I promised him I would help as much as I can with the bills but he said he couldn't take my money but really it's OUR money. But yeah, so he's off for at least 2 weeks now :\

So yeah.. tomorrow is Dianne's birthday (Shawn's mom) I'm not sure if we're doing anything but I have clinical Saturday morning so whatever it is, I'm not staying out late. Alright, back to work now.

what an amazing weekend so far..

So Thursday I had SIM lab for school, which I'm not really allowed to talk about since we had to sign a confidentiality form saying we won't talk about it. lol. But it was kinda fun and some of the exercises really helped. we were out of lab by 6:00pm so I got to spend the night with bub. :) Friday, Shawn and I went out with my parents to a local bar and we had a lot of fun there. it was kareoke night and Shawn and I were outside smoking with my parents and Shawn looks at me and says "listen... brown eyed girl" :D I grabbed him and went inside so he could sing it to me. :D (not with a mic or anything! haha just in my ear <3) While we were there he kept calling me Amanda Moore and I kept saying to him I am NOT Amanda Moore YET. ;) And my mom heard us and I asked her if she was okay with me being Amanda Moore and she said YES! haha and asked if that would make her momma Moore? hahaha. And they made fun of me allll night cause I had one drink all night. But I don't drink, EVER and don't even really like drinking, so to even have one.. but anyway, we left around 11pm and went back to my house..

SO! haha, funny story.. we stopped at Wendys to get food for Shawn after the bar, we get back to my house and he's in the kitchen getting the food out and on a plate and he's YELLING in the kitchen AMANDA MOORE!! I LOVE YOOOOU! haha. I'm like, "Bub, are you drunk?" haha. He's like no no, I'm fine.. I'm like oookay.. lol. SO he keeps doing it.. yelling from the kicthen. And he says "I want to ask you to marry me.. If I had the money, I would ask you right now manda." I said I know you would bub, it's okay. And I kept saying you can't call me Amanda Moore until we're at least engaged, so he comes storming out of the kitchen like a bat outta hell.. hahahaha. comes over to the couch and gets down on one knee! I go "SHAWN MOORE GET UP RIGHT FUCKING NOW!" hahaha and I kicked him! hahahaha. And he says "Will you marry me?!" wicked loud hahaha. I'm like Shawn Moore! you better be joking right now! And he grabs me and kisses me and hugs me and says "but I would really ask you if I could afford a ring right now" and I told him I know he would and its fine, but DON'T EVER DO THAT AGAIN UNLESS ITS REAL! lol. For some reason, afterwards, I was really upset cause I don't think you should joke around like that, but it was really funny and really cute. He also got to stay over my house Friday night so that was a nice treat too.

Yesterday was really nice too, we woke up early and went out to breakfast with Shawn's mom. Then we went up to the mall cause JC Penney was having a big sale and Shawn's sister was working so I got all kinds of stuff for work and got to see Sarah (Shawn's sister) and her belly is starting to get big :D it's so cute and she looked so cute yesterday.

So thennnnn, we're leaving JC Penney and he looks at me and says "do you wanna go look at rings?" I stopped where I was and said "are you joking?" and he said no, we can just go look around, he'll show me what he likes and I'll show him what I like. So we went down to Kay and started looking.. I was shaking like a leaf, literally and I was SO shy and like.. awkward.. lol. I've never EVER looked at engagement rings and it was like.. surreal. Shawn had to keep talking for me cause I was literally shaking and speechless.. lol. And anyone who knows me, knows that isn't me! hahaha. Shawn kept saying to the ladies "She's being wicked shy!" haha. So they let me try on all these different rings.. I had a $14,000 ring on my hand at one point! it was nuts. BEAUTIFUL, but nuts lol. the ladies educated us about all the different things you need to know and we really did learn a lot. I showed Shawn a couple rings I really loved and I heard him say under his breath "that's do-able" I'm like what?! :D and he's like nothing.. lol. I was literally on cloud 9 and just.. I don't know.. in awe. it felt real.. it felt right.. it felt.. perfect. we went out to dinner after and we talked more seriously about everything and he knows I don't want to know when he's going to propose but I asked anyway and he said he'd like to get married in about a year or two so I'm kinda guessing that could be sooooon. ;) but we both agreed we need to focus on getting into an apartment first. so that's our short term goal right now. :D

not sure what we're doing today.. maybe go pumpkin picking? :D Tomorrow we both don't have to work so we're hanging out all day. Shawn has a dentist appt at 2:45 for his wisdom teeth and he's coming to school with me to be my dummy for a physical assessment check off. I was kind of nervous for the check off, but I did it completely Thursday night on Shawn without having to look at my paper.

On a sad note, Shawn's mom's best friend LouLou's mom died Friday. :( LouLou is great and it sucks so bad. :( the wake is Tuesday night and I don't have lab Tuesday so I'm going with Shawn and Sarah. the funeral is Wednesday morning and I was going to go to that too but Shawn's not taking another day off from work so we're not going.

This Friday is Dianne's (Shawn's mom) birthday so I'm sure we'll go out to dinner or something. Unfortuneately, I have clinical Saturday morning. oh well.

Alright, I'm rambling now.. I'll shut up. :P

so first and definately most important, I got a 96% on my first exam!! :D I'm so proud of myself, I worked my hiney off to get that grade and I'm so happy! I danced/screamed around the house when I saw it on the screen, texted Shawn and called my mom. hahaha. I'm not going to lie, I was a little upset cause Shawn only said "Good" back, and granted he's at work, he's busy, but I wanted to hear he was proud of me or something and my sister made me feel so much better because she told me "Amanda, when was the last time Shawn was ever told someone was proud of him? Do you think he ever heard it growing up?" and I looked at her and told her she was totally right and I was hiring her as my therapist. haha. so yeah, that was a great Wednesday for me.

Shawn and I had a very long, very "heated" discussion Wednesday night.. we both said things we needed to say and things are definately better since. We both tend to bottle things up sometimes and we both just blew up Wednesday and got it all out. it felt really good and refreshing. we're going to try to set a like, "date night" type thing up, so we can just get out of the house and go out and have fun. it's just been really difficult lately with school. it's stressful and draining.. but he's been so understanding and I couldn't ask for anything more.

I can't say enough how much I just love him and adore him.. he's just so amazing. And he's so mature and his head is on completely straight and he knows what he wants and it's so attractive. He knows exactly who he is and he isn't going to change for anyone. He thinks of the future and PLANS for it, not just says "whatever happens, happens." He brought up the fact that if we keep saving the way we are right now, we can take out whatever we have saved next year for a wedding [insert BIG squee! HE mentioned this, not me!] and after the wedding we can start over and in 5 years we'd have a very large chunk of change saved for a down payment on a house. :D we have a PLAN. we know what we want.. we're working hard towards our goals together and it just feels amazing to have that together <3

okay so I guess this entry has just turned into how much I love Shawn. haha. I'll go now. :P

not a whole lot is new this week..

school is still going good. I got a 94 on my first quiz! Now is when my "need for an A" is going to work out well cause you have to pass Fundamentals with an 80 or higher. Last Saturday we had our first patient in clinical. We really didn't do much except take vitals and really learn the computer system. Last night in lab we were checked off on vitals and for some reason I was so nervous I would screw something up, even though I do them all the time! But I did awesome and now were moving on to physical assessments. Shawn's going to be my victim for that. haha.

Speaking of Shawn, we're great! :D were still adjusting to the new schedule of only seeing each other a few nights a week, but we're getting better. Plus he's sick with a bad cold and I can't afford to catch it. Speaking of his health, I am totally NOT worried about the whole "cancer" scare anymore. I did a simple home test for it and yeah, it's not cancer. haha. So that eased our minds.

We're still putting money away in our "baby fund" and we have quite a large chunk of change for only saving 3 months! :D we're also saving for the furniture and apartment and all that but we're not as stressed about that cause we don't really have anywhere to put the extra furniture just yet.. things have changed a little at his house, so we have to wait until we're ready to move out to buy all that. Good thing we waited.. BTW, the "baby fund" might turn into a "wedding fund" :D we've been talking more and more about it and he's suggesting we use it towards a wedding, or whichever one comes first. :) that means he's at least thinking about us getting married! everything is revolving over us moving out first.. so we'll see. ;)

Oh! Sunday, Shawn, Emma, Dianne (Shawn's mom) and I all went apple picking! :D it was SO much fun!! I haven't been apple picking since I was like, 8-9 years old so it was a blast. Emma "taught" me how to pick an apple and Shawn found an old birds nest that had an apple in it and we stole it for Dianne. haha. We also picked a pumpkin for Emma and a little baby white pumpkin for Max. Shawn bought my mom these wicked cool halloween looking figures (ones a cat and one's a skeleton) for a belated birthday present. She LOVES them. Emma got to bounce around in a bouncy house for a while and BEGGED me to go in with her but I was too big. lol. She's just way too cute, from the moment we got there, she was holding my hand and Shawn's and we kept swinging her around and yeah, it was so freaken cute. I can't wait til we have our own. :D Dianne was talking to me about Christmas and it was just wild to think that's just around the corner! >_< 3 more months. then 2 more months after that I'll be 22 and Shawn and I will be celebrating One Year! Ah! I can't believe that.. time has flown by. <3 before we know it, we'll be 23, I'll be a RN and we'll be popping out Moore babies! <3333

another update. things are good. school is going and I feel like I have a good system down for studying. I've been rereading everything we go over in class every night and I study at night while Shawn plays his game. I've also been studying at work which makes the days FLY by. :D Oh and I took my first quiz Wednesday and I got a 94%! :D I'm damn sure gonna make this happen.

Monday was 7 months for Shawn and I. I only got to see him for about an hour cause I had class til 8pm and he was exhausted. He's been working OT all week. which is great money wise, but is hard on him. He surprised me with a RING! :D No no, not THAT ring, but a homemade ring which is even more sentimentel to me. He made the entire thing from a scrap piece of steel! and it's GORGEOUS. theres a picture below. :) He's changed it a little since that picture, he soaked it in acid and it etched the different parts of the metals and its SO gorgeous. He has it again because we're trying to figure out how to keep it from rusting..

Shawn and I had a big loooong talk last night and we worked out a lot of little kinks in our relationship. We don't have big problems, just these little issues and we talked out a lot of it. it felt good and I can already see a difference. Shawn's insurance kicks in 2 weeks from today so we can finally address his issue.. I've become more and more worried about him as time passes.. But I'm trying to just erase it until we know more. I really can't afford to stress myself out even more over school and work and us and him.

and finally, I'll end with a picture of my ring when it was first done. Before the etching.
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I have SO much to update with!

First and most important, I survived my first days of theroy, lab and clinicals. I'm not scared off or overwhelmed like many of the people in my class feel. I'm actually extremely excited. :) Everything they talk about, everything we do, is SO interesting to me! I feel like I have a good system down for studying and even though theres a lot of material, I'm getting through it and retaining most of it. I knew this is what I was meant to do and now that I've gotten my toes wet again, I'm hooked. I actually look forward to studying and going to class cause I just want to know it all! I want to get it all in my head! I've even started to consider getting my BSN (Bachelor's of Science-Nursing) after this. I think what I'm going to do though is get a job with my ASN (Associates in Science-Nursing), if there are any by 2011, work with that for a few years.. get myself established somewhere. Get married, start a family, buy a house, all that stuff. Once Shawn and I get ourselves settled down, maybe I'll start taking online courses or even go back since most hospitals will pay tuition to further your education. we'll see. I need to make it through the next two years right now. haha.

Another good thing is that my dad was FINALLY denied the Parent PLUS loan! After fighting with Citi for almost a goddamn MONTH. So I only owe $875 this semester! :D And next semester I don't think I have to pay for ANYTHING :D and I should still get my books for FREE from Lee :D Oh good times.

All the stuff Shawn and I ordered through Lakeside have magically decided to ship, almost 2 months after ordering them. haha. All those cups, bowls, towels, bathroom stuff, etc. we ordered? Yeah, they never came.. I called the company and they had NO record of our order? Yeah that one. It's shipping now. haha. But we're happy. More stuff that we needed. I just need to pay for this semester which is about $300 for the next 3 months and once that's done I'm saving every last penny to move out and get our furniture. I can definitely do it working full time and all that.

Speaking of Shawn and I, we're good. Our 7 month anniversary is tomorrow. I'm waiting to see if Shawn remembers. haha. Not that it's a big deal! It's only 7 months, but every month we always do something cute, like get a card, or go out to dinner, or he surprised me with flowers on 5 months. Anyway, I still can't believe it's been 7 months already. it has FLOWN by and I know the next two years will fly by too because of school. That, is where we've become a little sticky.. School is rough, on the both of us. we're both used to seeing each other every single day, and now with school I don't see him Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday and Fridays are just going to be a couple hours after work because I have clinicals at 6:30am in MANCHESTER,NH!! Saturday mornings, so I have to go to bed early., but we still have Thursdays, Saturdays after 2pm, and Sundays. And of course Holidays and whatnot. we try to see each other Wednesdays after he gets out of work cause I don't have class until 5:30 so he stops by to see me for a little.. And Monday's we might be able to meet up for a little after classes sometimes cause I'm out by 7:30pm. But it is a lot of stress on us, and Shawn gets upset when I have to devote a lot of my time to school now, but that's just what we have to do for now. I'm bettering OUR future by doing this and it's only 5 semesters and I'm done. That FLIES by, trust me. I've already been in school for 3 years >_<

I'm off now, back to studying.

a happier entry. ha.

So things still haven't been great.. my parents and I are trying to appeal the approval for the Parent Plus loan on my dad and they are just giving us the biggest run around, but whatever. we should know soon if he was officially denied. So that's ok. Shawn still doesn't have insurance so I'm still worried about him, but October will be here soon so whatever.

on to better things: Friday was Shawn's birthdayyyyy! :D I worked so hard to keep a bunch of things a secret for him, but everything got out before hand. 7 months ago, this would've pissed me off and I would've been upset all night but I was fine! :) I just laughed it off and we had an amazing time. The first surprise was I called his mom and tried to get his whole family to go to dinner (Mom, sister, brother) But his brother was going away for the weekend, but we got everyone else to go. So anyway, Shawn didn't work Friday so he met me a lunch and he cut off all of his hair! I was so surprised but I LOVE it. it looks amazing on him. He doesn't love it cause he's so used to his hair being so long, but it looks awesome :) So that night we went to the Village Smokehouse, a new resturant downtown. We got there and everyone came.. Shawn's mom, Shawn's mom's boyfriend, Sarah, Ben and Emma and my parents came too. Dinner was really good and Shawn was SO freaken cute with Emma (his niece). I was melting all night. He would give her a big hug then she'd snuggle into his neck and just stay there and Shawn would kiss the top of her head. go ahead *AWWWW* haha. Then they came out and surprised Shawn with a cake and we all sang Happy Birthday really loud. we stayed around for a little and talked then Shawn and I went back to my house and he drank with my parents and we all talked. Oh! Shawn's mom COMPLETELY surprised me at dinner and said something like "Amanda's in the family" and Shawn said "She's not in the family YET, Ma" and she says "well she practically is now!" hahaha. it was so cute and I was so happy his mother feels that way! I mean, we've only been together not even 7 months which I know how people hear that and they're like yeahh, wait another year or two, but 7 months has FLOWN by and we were wicked serious before we even were dating! So yeah.. anyway, I stayed over Shawn's house that night.

Yesterday, Shawn and I took Emma out so Sarah and Ben could go to a movie. She was so cute when her mom was leaving, she kept kissing her belly and saying "Bye Maxie!" (BTW, they're naming him Max! I love it!) We took her Mini Golfing and Shawn kicked our asses. haha. Emma did really well though! She got two hole in ones and Shawn got a couple. I had one. I beat Shawn so bad last time we went and yesterday I was terrible. haha. we took a bunch of pictures. I can't wait to get them printed. Then we got her some ice cream. Ran up to Best Buy and headed back to Shawn's. Emma was playing tug o' war with Lola and it was so cute! Emma is so strong for being a little peanut! haha. She's built just like I was at her age. She's 5 but barely weighs 35-40 lbs. haha. After Sarah came and got Em, Shawn and I went back to my house and had dinner and we both fell asleep by like 10pm and slept all night. lol.

Today we're going to Wal-Mart to print our photos from the past two days and going to a BBQ at Mem and Pep's. I will get ONE surprise on Shawn: I'm bringing a cake there for him and Mem since she won't be home for her birthday at the end of the month cause they're going to Florida next week. He'll probably be mad that I bought another cake but oh well. :P

I start school in three days and I'm extremely nervous but ready for it. once I get it started I know it will fly by. 5 semesters and I'm done!! I can't wait to be an RN.

Alright, I'm outta hereeee.

it fucking POURS!!!!!!

talk about everything bad happening at the exact same fucking time! FYI: my language will NOT be sweet in this entry.

So.. everything was going amazing. This past Saturday I went out to breakfast with Shawn and his mom, sister and niece and I had a blast. I really love his family and I don't see them very often so it's always fun when we get together. his sister REALLY surprised me after breakfast when she was talking to Shawn and I had his niece with me, I overheard her tell Shawn he has to marry me so I can be the god mother of her son (did I mention that yet? she's having a little boy! :D) not only was a flattered that she would make me the god mother, but she suggested that Shawn MARRY me! haha. then I find out from school on Monday that I'm getting a lot of financial aid and that if my parents get denied a Parent Plus Loan, I will get more financial aid! So, if only one of my parents got denied, I would only owe $825 for the semester! That's only like 2something a month for 3 months and I can definately afford that! *insert very excited Amanda* My dad applies for the loan and they say it's taking longer than expected and we will e-mail you. *SMILE* he's probably getting denied! WELLLLLL 3 days later, I check and the fucker has been PRE-APPROVED!?! Are you KIDDING me?! he's fucking BANKRUPT! How the FUCK do you approve someone for a $6,000 loan who is BANKRUPT!? I'm livid at this point and try my mom next, she's approved right away! Being unemployed for over a year I'm sure really helped that. right? *rolls eyes* so now.. I'm fucked. royally. my bill jumped back up to 2,000something and my 3 equal payments would be over $900. how the FUCK can I pay $900 a month for 3 months on top of my other bills?! oh that's right, I can't. So now I'm trying to find someone to give me a loan that my parents can cosign for me. its just ridiculous. this is my FUTURE and I'm NOT putting it off anymore. so I don't care if I have to fucking sit on the side of the road with a fucking tin can, I'll find the money to go. period.

THEN on top of everything else, Shawn has a medical issue thing going on. And of course, he doesn't have health insurance until 10/1/09. well.. I really don't think this should go untreated or unchecked by a doctor until OCTOBER! So I've been so worried over him, I haven't slept right in a week. I don't really want to get into details about it because it's Shawn's business and I don't need to be posting it everywhere but there's a good chance he may possibly have cancer. Not to mention, cancer runs really strongly though his family which scares me even more. I mean, it very well might NOT be cancer but there's a chance it could be too.. and that chance is what's killing me. I literally can't say the word out loud.. whenever someone mention's the "C" word, I cringe. I can't even think about it without getting really anxious! it's terrible. and Shawn acts like he's not worried but I know he is.. he talks about it all the time and "jokes" about it but when someone jokes about stuff like that, it's just covering up fear.

AND ON TOP OF ALL THAT, my car failed inspection. *shoots self* SO, that was $30 dished out for a big fucking red R on my windshield which is basically a flashing light on my car for cops to pull me over. I had to pay Shawn's mom's boyfriend Ronnie $150 to fix the tie rod and put two new tires on in the back cause, oh yeah, on the way to the shop to fix the tie rod, I hit a pot hole and popped one of my rear tires. *big sarcastic grin*

OH YEAH! And remember how Shawn and I ordered a bunch of stuff outta a magazine? Cups, bowls, towels, bathroom stuff, yeah, $137 worth of stuff. we'll it's been 2 weeks and we still hadn't recieved anything. I call the company and they have NO RECORD of us ever ordering anything, even though I have a fucking confirmation number and a fucking receipt! But no.. we never ordered anything. And Shawn and I don't want to do it AGAIN in case the first one finally goes through and charges our account TWICE. FML.

it's fucking POURING here kids! and I don't see any sign of sun..

yep, it's been 6 months today! I really can't believe it. Time has flown by.. we've also gone through so much in just 6 months! From people on the outside looking in, some may say we've moved fast but to us, it's not fast enough. We can't wait to move in together and get our life started. Our families don't think we've taken it too fast eather, which is awesome. I was talking to my mom and sister the other night and they are like "ok, from anyone elses perspective, ya you guys took things quick, but we don't think you did because we see you two together daily." My sister told me that night too that she's so in love with Shawn and that makes me so happy! :D Things are just good and I couldn't be happier! :D

just a quick one.

know how I was so super worried I would lose my job due to have clinicals on Thursday from 3-10pm? well if you didn't, now you do. I was so incredibly nervous, losing sleep and more weight because I didn't want to bring it up to my boss in fear of losing my job! and on top of that stress, we had a co-worker who was "potentially" diagnosed with breast cancer (she's fine though!) this week and my boss's mother died 2 weeks ago.. so there was so much stress going around the office, I couldn't find the right time to talk to her. I finally grew some balls yesterday and sat down to talk to her about it and she told me since it's only from September to December and since I still have enough vacation and sick time, I can stay! :DDDD THANK GOD!! I sighed a big sigh of relief and finally slept soundly last night.

This solidifies everything :D Shawn and I will definitely be able to move out by the first of the year since I won't even be making any less since I get to use my time. We are definitely ordering the furniture tonight and everything is working out exactly as planned! :D I couldn't be happier and I'm so excited for our future, together <3

been on antibiotics for almost a week now and I can definitely see a difference already. I can eat more foods than I could before and it feels awesome :D had to go for another test this morning, a HIDA scan.. they injected me with a small amount of isotopes (radioactive matter!) and put me in this machine and once I was in the machine I freaked out. I'm extremely claustrophobic and I was stuck under this big machine for an HOUR! luckily the radiologist made me feel a lot better and I calmed down. All I kept thinking was how bad I wished Shawn could've came with me. maybe I depend too much on him, but I really don't even care, he's my rock. I talked to him after and he calmed me down too. Anyway, I don't know what the test was for.. something with my gallbladder.. but I think the bacterial overgrowth is the answer to everything.

in other good news, Shawn and I are going to order our furniture this weekend! Officially! I'm buying the sofa and recliner from Ashley's and he's getting the coffee and end tables from the unfinished furniture store in Milford. By getting those there, we're saving $500! we're going to stain them ourselves too to save money, plus it will be fun :) we're also ordering all kinds of stuff outta this magazine, like cups, bowls, bathroom stuff, towels, etc and we're saving a shit ton of money doing that too. :) we're such bargain shoppers. haha. once all this is bought, we can save for first, last and security and we will be out! :D shouldn't take us very long either.. so we're still shooting for first of the year.

school starts in just about a month and shawn's birthday is in a month too. I'm super nervous to start school, REAL nursing school.. but I'm excited for Shawn's birthday! He's going to be 22 and I have absolutely no idea what to get him.. lol. I want to make him something.. like I did for Valentine's day, but I have no idea what and I don't want it to be cheesy. He keeps telling me not to buy him anything and that I should just buy stuff for the apartment but I HAVE to get him something! I have a couple ideas but idk.. we'll see. We also find out this month what Sarah (Shawn's sister) is having! we're so excited. we asked Emma and she said she wants a baby sister but Shawn and I agree that will be a shit show if theres another girl. haha. we'll know soon!

okay, I'm off to lay in the sun <3

I may have the answer to all of my stomach problems!

I had to go for a Bacterial Overgrowth test yesterday at my GI doctor. I had to drink this drink with Lactulose in it and every 20 minutes I blew into a little bag with a syringe attached to test the hydrogen level in my breath. (called a Hydrogen Breath Test) I was suppose to be there for 3 hours to test my levels but after only an hour and 45 minutes, I was already positive and free to go. Every sample, my numbers almost doubled so it was definitely positive for a bacteria in my small intestines. So my office called me today and they are starting me on Augmentin (antibiotics) for two weeks then one week off and two weeks of Cipro (another antibiotic). I'm hoping this will solve a lot of the problems I've been having and might even clear up everything thats ever been wrong with me in the first place! *crosses fingers* The NP I work with here at my doctors office suggested I start Acidophillus with it as well and stay on my Prilosec twice a day too. I also need to stop smoking because it doesn't help my belly at all and everytime I smoke it makes my belly hurt anyway. lol. So I'm really REALLY going to try to quit. And we'll see how all of that helps with the tummy issues.

In the mean time, I've still been eating normal to try to stay healthy and it seems to be working really well for me. Shawn really has made me so much more healthy.. and I'm so eternally grateful of that. He makes sure I eat every single night and that I take my medicine and he just genuinely cares for me <3 I love him. :D

so yeah, just wanted to update with that and we'll see what happens in the next month! wish me luck!

Shawn is starting to spoiling me hardcore! haha. First it's flowers for our 5 month anniversary which was totally unexpected.. then this Saturday he surprised me with a beautiful necklace! :D again, completely unexpected and for no reason! it was so cute and the necklace is beautiful. he bought it with his mom and she was asking "what's today?" and Shawn says "Saturday." haha. he's so amazing and I love him SO much. I guess the old ladies at the store kept telling him I was a lucky lady to have him and he's so cute. haha. which is all very true. ha.

Saturday night we went to the Folk Fest with my parents. was pretty fun until the end of the night. I was so ready to leave. I had been up all Saturday morning sick with a flare, so I was exhausted. But we met up with Razz and Barry (mom and dad's long time friends) and their friends Darlene and her boyfriend and another woman.. I don't remember her name though. Darlene was so nice and talked to Shawn and I all night, it was really fun. Shawn and I were cuddling all night too which is my favorite thing to do in the whole world. At first, we had to.. the bar we were at had like no chairs so I just sat on Shawn's lap then the rest of the night his arms were around me constantly and always on my butt! haha. But I love that :)

Our bank account is officially open and has money in it! :D we did that Friday on my lunch.. it was so exciting and such a big commitment. :) we kept hugging and kissing after and I kept saying "Babe! we have a bank account together!!" haha. we also went and looked at furniture Friday and we know exactly what we want and we're going to order it probably this weekend or next. :) getting closerrrr!

okay, back to work now. <33333

I guess I'll start with last weekend.. Friday I stayed over Shawn's but we didn't even get to his house until 3am and Lola was obviously mad at him for being out all night cause she pee'd all over the bed! so we were up until 3:30 changing all the sheets and whatnot. we laid in bed allll day Saturday since it was discustingly humid out and literally the second you walked outside, you were drenched in sweat. so nasty. we went out Saturday night to get some Luau clothes for Sunday. Sunday was Shawn's niece Emma 5th birthday and it was, of course, Luau themed. Shawn and I got there early to help set up and fill water balloon's. we filled almost 200 and they were all gone in 10 seconds. lol. but yeah, it was a lot of fun. I was really anxious about going since Shawn's grandmother and I don't exactly get along and I didn't know if she was going to start shit at her great granddaughter's birthday but I wouldn't put it past her. But everything was fine. Nothing was ever said. I talked to everyone though and had a lot of fun! Shawn and I were playing with this little baby boy, Cody all day and he was SO freaken cute! He was so friendly and adorable. And like I've said in the past, Shawn is amazing with kids. Made me melt. :) we left the party around 2:30 and went to my mem and pep's for a little cookout. nothing big, but I really wanted to go swimming. :) we're going to mem and pep's again Sunday too for Tylor's 9th birthday.

This week has been the week from HELL at work.. we're extremely short handed and it's just been off the wall. I'm SO happy it's Friday and next week we go back to normal. This weekend Shawn and I are going to look seriously at furniture and price everything out. I think we'll be buying in within the next couple of weeks. We're also opening up a joint bank account today, just a savings where we can only put money in and both have to be there to take the money out. Just throw some extra money in there here and there for a baby fund. ^_^ I'm extremely happy and excited about this because that's a big step and a big commitment and he wants that with me and it's awesome :) plus he brought it up! I love him :) now get this straight, we aren't trying to have one for at LEAST another year, but it's good to start saving now :)

I'm staying at Shawn's house tonight. Oh yeah! I forgot to say this above, but I'm now allowed over his house. The drama with his grandmother has ended.. I guess she came up the day before Emma's birthday and was talking to Shawn and told him she never said he couldn't have his "friend" over. *grrr* I'm not his fucking friend, bitch. But anyway, she definitely DID say that, I was fucking there and I heard every single nasty word she said about me and Shawn. But anyways, she said it herself so I will be over there a lot more now :) AND Shawn's dad was sticking up for me saying "you DID say at that disrespectful stuff about Amanda and you don't even know her!" I was like woooow! :D Thank you Mike! haha. Tomorrow I think we're going to go to the Lowell Folk Festival. just walk around for a little. I don't know if it's boring now, but I remember it being fun when I was a kid.. then again, everything is fun when you're a kid. :P

Alrighty! I'm at work and I should probably do some work. haha.

yesterday was Shawn and I's 5 month anniversary. yeah, yeah laugh as you wish but we celebrate months. :P never anything big but its cute and fun. yesterday he surprised me with a bouquet of beautiful flowers and took me out to dinner at this nice italian resturant. It was very cute and very fun. he spoils me so bad. lol.

This past Sunday he took me to the Museum of Science! it was soo much fun!! we drove into Boston and spent 3-4 hours in the museum. they had a bunch of new exhibits and I loved the human body part. so interesting. this weekend we might go to the Aquarium with Jessica (my little cousin) we'd have to go Saturday though cause Sunday is Emma's 5th birthday party! Emma is Shawn's niece. She's so adorable.. her party is Hawaiian themed so Shawn and I are going to get cute tops and grass skirts. :) I'm slightly worried since Shawn's grandmother is going to be there and if anyone knows the issues there, they would understand my anxiety. But I'm just going to stay with Shawn and his mom for the day and I'll be good. lol.

On an even better note, Shawn and I are going to go camping soon! :) just the two of us and I'm sooo excited. :)

alright, I'm going to enjoy the sun <3

so much has happened in the past week.

first off, last Friday, Shannon and I went off and got our nails done for the wedding and spent the day together until the wedding rehearsal at 3pm. Rehearsal was quick and painless. that night Shawn and I went to the bar [The Big Kahoona] with my parents and Shawn's dad and Lucy (Shawn's dad's girlfriend) I was WICKED nervous.. I have only seen Shawn's dad a hand full of times and now he's meeting my parents and what if he didn't like my parents or my parents didn't like him?! ugh! I was freaking out! But luckily, everything went extremely smooth and they seemed to really hit it off! :) plus Shawn's dad graduated high school with my dad so they had a lot of similar friends. So we were out pretty late Friday night and Shawn and my parents were pretty loaded. haha.

Saturday morning I was up at the ass crack of dawn. I couldn't sleep the night before for whatever reason and I knew I had to get up early anyway to head up to Shannon's to get ready for the wedding. got there around 9:30am and all the girls got their hair done and got dressed, took some pictures at the apartment and headed over to the wedding for 1:30pm. lined up once we got there and walked right in! ha. I was a little nervous because I had to stand up in front of all those people and it was hot and.. yeah. I have panic attacks.. ha. but I was good. after the ceremony was pictures then I ran up to Shawn and pinched his butt and it just wasn't good from there.. we ended up fighting the whole time, he acted like I didn't even exsist, and yeah.. I don't even really wanna get into it cause it just sucked wicked bad. My family could all tell something was going on and everyone could tell how upset I was.. my sister grabbed me and pulled me out to the dance floor and told me not to get upset here and just enjoy myself and I tried to, I did, but it didn't work. anyway, later that night Shawn and I solved everything and we're back to normal now, well, not even normal, better than normal! :) Sunday we had dinner at my mem and pep's and it was really nice. my cousin Matt was home from California for the wedding so he came and everyone caught up. it was really nice.

Tuesday night and Wednesday morning of this week was the best. :D I got to babysit Shannon's baby Kaelob for the night :) Shannon and Kristian were on their honeymoon, so I got to keep him for the night. I picked him up Tuesday after work and Shawn met me at my parents house. Shawn and the baby was the cutest thing I've ever seen in my entire life. period. my heart was melting every second. He came in and asked for the baby right away and he was just sitting on the couch talking to him and the baby was cooing back :) then they both watched TV together while my parents and I ate dinner. it was so freaken cute! I didn't hold him almost the whole night lol. My mom and I gave him a tub in the sink in a big bowl. hahaha. it was sooo cute and he loved it! Then around 9 Shawn took the baby upstairs to put him to sleep. Kaelob was holding on to his thumb and pinky while he slept and Shawn was melting too. haha. He kept saying alllll night "I want one babe.. I want a boy.. I just want a healthy baby.. I love you, your going to be a great mom" it was KILLING me to hear all that. we both want a baby so bad but we know we can't do it now. another two years until I'm out of school then we can try.. and I know two years will fly by but it seems like FOREVER away.. :( or at least until we move in together. ;)

so anyway, this weekend we have a birthday party on Sunday for Shawn's friend and other than that, we're just relaxinggg. :) update later.

just to update, my belly has been doing better lately. Shawn thinks he figured me out and I think he might be right. haha. I've been eating normally for the past week or so and I haven't been getting sick because when I don't eat for days on end, when I finally do eat, my body rejects it and freaks out. definitely makes sense. So, I've been eating very plain, boring things, but I haven't been sick so far so I can't complain.

Shannon's "wedding" is tomorrow, the 4th. it's not really a wedding, they are already married and have a baby so it's a vow renewal.. but anyway, I'm a bridesmaid. everything is done and ready except for getting our mani & pedi today and the rehearsal is today at 3pm. it's suppose to rain on and off tomorrow so I'm really hoping that holds off. I'm SO sick of rain. it's rained a total of 23 out of 30 days in MA this June. it's RIDICULOUS. anyway, I just hope it's fun tomorrow. I just really wanna have a good time with my family and Shawn and just have fun. :)

I think my parents and Shawn's dad and dad's girlfriend are going to meet/hang out for the first time tonight. Shawn texted me while we were both at work (he works with his dad) and told me his dad wanted to go out with my parents Friday night. I was actually really shocked to hear this, especially because Shawn's father was the one who mentioned it. So, I think we're just going to go out to a bar for a little tonight and have everyone meet for the first time. We just found out both of our fathers graduated high school together too so maybe that will break the ice a little. I'm actually really nervous because this will be the first time I really hang out with his dad myself since we never see him much. (whole lot of drama that I don't really want to get into) But I've met his dad a few times and he's really nice, just never actually been out or hung out with him. So, that will be nice.

Anyway, I'm going to go hop in the shower and get ready for today.<3